Thread: Situations that depress you, how you delt with it and did you over come it?

I want to make this because the majority of us have dealt or deal with depression. So I want to see the different situations of everyone/how they dealt with it/and did you over come it?
This way if someone comes in to read here they can probably find someone that has been through something similar and thus they might be able to help one another.

For example, my situation was that when I was young I was molested....for about 3 years. I told my mom and she didnt even call the police or anything. That really hit me hard, because shouldnt a mother risk it all for their children?
Then when we moved to Texas, everything was new to me but it was fine. I was still traumatized because of what happened to me that I was literally afraid to let a boy get near me. A few years after I met my exbf Alex, he made my head spin. He was the only guy I let near me...but that was only cuz he was a cross dresser. I thought that he was the one that was going to take away my depression but he only made it worse. He use to abuse me emotionally but I thought I was inlove and didnt want to leave him. Everyday was a constant battle for me not to cry infront of my friends of try and keep sane. I thought of cutting or killing myself but thank god I was strong enough to actually not come to that. I lost friends because of him and made enemies. I as in a serious trance. I was no longer controling my life. I couldnt go out with friends because he would get jealous and really possesive...to a point where he would say "fine you want to go out there and dance all over other guys then go...but you and I are over" and I would say "Im not going to cheat on you. Nevermind I am staying"
I didnt have a life at all. I couldnt do anything....I felt like an animal in captivity. I would get so depressed and never showed him, my friends or family. No one knew what was happening with me. Finally one day my aunt invited me to church and I went. I would go twice a week and Alex thought I was with my mom "Spending cuality time" but Iwas really at church. It might sounds stupid or whatever to you guys but it helped me. My deression started fading, I got stronger emotionally and I stood to my bf. He didnt like that I was now taking control of my life and that I wasnt getting affected by what he said to me. Everytime he said "Im going to leave you if you go" I would say "Fine, then break up with me right now because I am going" and what do you know he would say "No baby Im sorry. I just dont wanna be away from you, I love you" then I would say "I love you too but I have to go"
Funny how the tables turned after I finally became my own person.
I broke up with him in May 31. Now I am dating a guy named David and its going fantastic...almost 8 months

The reasoning behind my depression and the aftermaths of them:

I've been:
Raped
Abused Physically/Sexually/Mentally by my parents
Scarred
Homeless
Called names
beaten down by a gang
Shot at
Stabbed
Hit by a car
The attempts have been made to
Smother me
Drown me
I've been
Bullied
Harrassed
In and out of an abusive relationship.
In and out of the hospital for mental issues and physical ones

The Result:
Drugs
Cutting
Sex addict
Drinking
partying
Living on the streets
Hurting everyone around me
Lying to everyone
Hating myself
Letting people use me
Attempted suicides
Stress
Heartache
And no life to live

Everything has been taken from me since I was little.
My innocence, love, ability to trust, my ability to forgive, my will to live, my ability to care.
My heart has been torn and disintegrated into a state of nothingness. Replaced with stone. Really now I couldn't even care if I lived or died or what happened to my after that happened.
I just don't know what to do
I'm fifteen, this is the life I have lived. I would do anything to trade places with someone who has it simpler.

REPLY TO porcelaindoll:
your life really touches me... I dont like when other people suffer it really gets deep into my heart.
If I could have the ability to change places with you, I would. If I could give up my life for someone else I would gladly do it.

I could sit here and say that I understand your pain but I dont even have the slightest clue what if feels to even go through half of the stuff you have gone through. But I can say that if you ever need someone to talk to, you can contact me or even post in this threat....I am planning on reading this thread everyday to try and help who ever needs some advice. I am fully comitted to help people and I wont let you or anyone else that comes in this thread down.
But like I was saying life for you i can tell is very hard at the moment and I know that you must need someone to talk to. Even though I dont know you I am here for you, and I am saying that from the bottom of my heart. You are a tough girl....even though you have been through you still wake up every morning. I think that is a great big thing If you still have the strength to wake up then I believe you have the strength to go on in life. There is something in my heart that tells me to tell you that right now your times are in darkness but dont give up now. Stop what you are doing that is hurting yourself and focus on stablize yourself my dear. Its all about having the will to go on and to brush off everything that is negative in your life, to see the brighter things in life. To step up and beyond of what others or you might think of you. Go a step further of what you want, you deserve nothing but the greatest happiness.
God is important to me and you might think that because of your life he isnt there...but you are wrong. He is here for all of us, we go through the things we go through in life for a reason. I will pray for you even if you wont want me to
There is something greater for you coming and its all a matter of time. The way I see things is that we go through bad times so when the time for us to be happy we can truly appriciate it.

Wow...thank you...so much. I mean, I appreciate you being there for me because truly, no one else has ever really been. They leave when they don't need me anymore....
I never have actually talked about a lot of the things that have happened in my life. I bury them deep down inside so I don't have to deal with them everyday but really my past shows in my reflection.
Thank you truly for being there.
I don't even know you and yet, it seems like you are one of the few people who can visit me in my dark world...

REPLY TO porcelaindoll:
well my dear you can count on me 100% :]
I am not walking out on you, I am the type of person that sticks with what they say.
I promise you that I will help you in any way that I can.
I want to help you to let those emotions out becaue keeping them inside is what messes you up the most. The reflection that you see of yourself I can tell is something you dont like to see..... So I will help you to change it so that when you look in a mirror that you are happy with what you see.

As a start, you need to let those emotions and thoughts out. Second, accept everything that has happened to you in your past and now, and realize that there is something amazing coming for you in the future that will blow your mind.
It is true what they say that your past makes you who you are now, and that you cant change it. You can change the person you are to the person you want to be. Think about it and let me know

I want to work on changing who I am. I want to forget everything that has happened but really I am not sure on how to take the steps towards doing that.
I don't know how to erase the scars. Inside and out.
The memories that give me nightmares...
I just don't know anymore...

REPLY TO porcelaindoll:
its not going to be easy that is for sure. but it can be done.
the scars you have wear them as "a badge of honor" as they say, they show that you are a fighter.
There is alot of harm you have done to yourself and that others have done to you. The first step you should take is that you need to forgive yourself, but do it from the bottom of your heart. When you feel a calming feeling of peace you will know that you have fogiven yourself. After that....it wont be easy but you need to foget the people that have harmed you. It will take time but you can do it =]
Tonight I would like for you to make two lists. One with all the bad things that have happened to you and the other with all the good things. I am sure the bad will out-weigh the good but we are going to change that. Starting tomorrow, everything good...even if its small like a smile or something. Also when something good happens if you think that it can replace something in your bad list then scratch it out from your bad list and add the good in its place. Before you know it the list will be fill with good things
Then ask for forgiveness to those people that you might have harmed. You will see that the more people see a starting change in you they will start seeing a new you as well....and thats what we are shooting for.
the memories that turn into nightmares will slowly fade
All of this will take time but if you put your all into it then you can achieve it.
Oh and whenever something bad happens to you starting tomorrow, look at the brightside of the situation. Everything has its brightside, even if its something small.

I think I can do this...
I'll just need a lot of help and someone like you I can rely on and talk to...
I just want my life back from the dark side...

I will help you in any way I can ^_^ you can count on me
you can rely on me and talk to me when you want

THere should be more good people like you out htere. I hope you realize this haaha((=