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I JUST WANT TO SCREAM TO BREAK THE SILENCE.
The one within me and hte one that surrounds.
I feel like it's eating me alive. Devouring my soul, my heart, my life. The silence is invading everything. Nothing is safe. The silence emminates from me. No words escape my lips, only silence. My eyes are silent. Everything, the quiet, everything silent. The silence is horrifying. It screams the truths I don't want to face. It lets the secrets leak out. The silence, it's only pain.
I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!
Get out before the silence eats me alive. Kills me.
I can't stand the quiet any longer.
I can't face the silence.
The silence is dark.
The silent, quiet moments are like a secret suicide.
It leaves me alone with my thoughts. That can't happen. I can't think.
I JUST WANT TO SCREAM.
Because the silence. Just. Won't. End.

Believe in yourself. We love you. Be strong and carry on. If not for yourself then for other people. Believe me people out there do care about you and do love you. You don't need to suffer and die in scilence. That was never the way it was meant to be. And although the screaming may never stop, and the shit inside our heads may never end, we must believe in ourselves, and we must carry on. No matter what this place throws at us, stick ur middle finger up and punch it in the face, because it didn't have to happen to you, and if thats the truth, then it can be sorted out. It was not your destiny to end up like this. If you try hard enough, I know you can silence the screams.

If I stop screaming I'll never be heard.
I feel so. locked inside my head.

i couldn't have said it better myself.

I know how you feel. You need to get out but you scream louder and louder but no one hears.
Its like hell inside your head. But believe me, if no where else, on hear you are being heard. Forget about the shithole outside, they don't matter, and concentrate on yourself, listen to your screams, your crying, and let it all out. Cry when you want to, scream and shout, rock back and fourth in your chair until it grinds to the ground. Its like tidying. It has to get worse before it gets better, let it all out until theres nothing left, then slowly start rebuilding your life from the ground. It may sound like strange advice, but trust me. Theres a brick wall ahead so go back and go around. It may just be my frame of mind right now, but its the best advice I can give. Never give up.