Getting over an ex.

  • There’s a lot of things that come to mind when people say the word, “home.” The first thing that may come to mind is the place you feel most safe, or the most comfortable. I can personally say that at one point my homes name was a boy named Bailey. He was my first real and serious relationship. Him and I could’ve been at the edge of a cliff with a deadly drop and I would feel at home. I’ve never experienced such a thing. As much as I wanted it to, it did not last. Somethings just do not work out. I don’t really wanna go into detail about why we broke up, what matters is that it happened. This was 2 years ago, and I can still feel the pain. It’s hard to lose your best friend. I struggled a lot at first I will admit. I had a lot of coping skills that were not healthy. For example, I threw myself into new relationships with people I was not even in love with to numb the pain. And I still feel horrible about it to this day. That’s not who I am at all. Usually if I get into a relationship with someone it’s not temporary or for fun, it’s because I genuinely want to try to spend my life with the person I am with. I was just so hurt. I feel as though during that time I lost touch with myself and who I was. I felt numb for months on end. It was bad at night especially. I would be able to distract myself during the day, surround myself with people I love, do things I enjoy doing to get my mind off of what I felt. During the night I didn’t have a distraction. I was alone with my thoughts. I can recall many nights I’d fall asleep with tears dried up on my cheeks. I coped with it, though. After a while the breakdowns had more and more time spaced between each other. It started out as hours between breakdowns, then days, then weeks, and then months. I finally decided that it was time for me to move on after a while. I found a guy I genuinely like. And he treats me like a princess. I’d be lying if I said I still didn’t miss Bailey being in my life, even as a friend. But sometimes it’s best that we love people from a distance, and leave what was not meant to be in the past. I’m still healing. But I learned a lot from that relationship. If you read this far thanks for hearing my story. Ily <3

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  • beautifulmonster
    beautifulmonster Im sorry your relationship didnt work out. A demise of a relationship can take toll on everyone of us emotionally. What I've found for me was working on improving myself. That gives me the time to heal and at the same time, making myself a better person....  more
  • Tokyo
    Tokyo I got over an ex. Ended up with Y
    Nov 5
  • IdkNxva
    IdkNxva Lmao