Self esteem is lost

  • Thinking about deleting all my pictures on Instagram that show my face. I feel like this will be self libation. I know I will never be able to compete with the females that guys are looking for today. I've never felt so hideous on my life. Too be honest social websites that are for finding new people have really ruined me. Seeing guys being with hot women or guys flirting with other females and then trying to say oh well we will see if we fall in love with each other then come to find out you log on the social media website were you two met  and come to find out there is sexual images and other flirting with girls. I've lost all my self esteem. I can't do social online websites anymore. I wanted to make one more account to say if you don't see me on for the rest of time I'm still alive and ticking somewhere in The World. But I will not tolerate this internet abuse. I've also lost all self esteem finding a boyfriend and finding people to talk to. I'm done. I've tried. But this abuse is to much for me to handle.


    Final Paws update: I did delete almost all my photos containing my face only a few remain on Instagram and I will not be posting anymore ever. The reason is pretty clear from this blog and not only that I don't like how my face looks as in how my face physical looks at the conditional state my face is in. I got a lot of pimples going on and a lot of break outs from stress and moisturizer is barely helping if any. I'm going to be working on drinking 3-4 glasses a water a day. I know this might not count because with what you read on Google anything should be taken as a grain of salt. But sparkling water isn't that bad all sparkling water is carbonation and water. You just have to be careful no sugar. But that's also why my face is fucked besides not taking my hyenine in my teenage years which really perm fucked up my facial and teeth condition without spending thousands of dollars on a dermatologist and a dentist that can legally put me to sleep and do sedative dentist work on my teeth and also what's probably wrong with my face being so dry and fucked up is I'm not drinking enough water and all I want is sugary drinks. I will be working on my health and spiritual health while gone so later peeps! You can find my contact information on my account page of course LMAO.