The feeling of true lonliness

  • Honestly, I miss being younger. It's really quite sad already thinking that. I mean shit I'm just 19. I feel so strange, being at the point where I have  to just man up and be an adult and do all of this fucking bullshit. And hell sometimes I think for what... To live the same cookie cutter type lives every other normal fucking 9-5 joe lives? Well fuck that. Cause I will always know that I can control what happens, and create the life I'd like to live, and I still do have hope for myself. Now that's one of the main things that keeps me going. That and the friends I still have. I suppose I also have perseverence, and I am grateful for that... but still... throughout it all, you can't help but still feel alone... Will add to later... maybe tomorrow?